well, finally i got a clean break up with her le. which i hate to admit it. actually the past few days i have been keep pestering her about going back to her etc.. there are reasons why i did this.. you know ma? i want you to hate me even more and i want you to give me the confidence of not going back to you alr.. yea its cruel like what you say you dont want a rs anymore. so why not i be cruel to you as well which keep on pestering you? hais. now, you will think i resemble like gl alr.. which is what i want you to feel about me.. but the fact that is iam not really like gl.. i deliberately de.. hope you forgive me about this. i couldnt really bear to leave you de and thats real. since i love you so much i gotta let you go alr.. sigh.. why things must turn out this way lor? bec of that gl then make both of us feel hurt? yes i know your feelings need time and stuff but what about mine? have you thought of mine anot? i told you many times that i am weak this RS le. you just dont really get it right? and i still think the 3 weeks you been with me is like nth.. why? cos gl been with you for 3 months then you think so much for what? why jason or me never think that much? wtf sia? i know you still like him de.. if not there is no reason why you will only think of GL but not me and jason.. yes he hurt you deeply. then the more you should forget about him le and go with me instead, yet we break up.. hais this isnt what i want and isnt what you want.. then you should not do this to me.. ytd i was really drunk and harsh on you sry i have to be like that.. someone out there maybe will be better than me ba.. you said iam your everything.. come to think of it i dont know whether am i your everything alr anot. if you are, you wont be thinking of GL and break with me. then since now you dont wanna sms me i wish you all the best in your studies le.. my heart have alr lost that missing part which is you.. i hope one day.. really one day that missing part will come back and fixed my heart again.. which i doubt so le ba..

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