hmm, today can say that would be a better day for me.. preoccupied myself by going to mr nerd sch to meet him to study so that wont think that much when stay at home. he advise me these and that, which i really appreciate for what he did.. although he is the middle man la i feel bad for doing that =( bec of us then he have to be the middleman >.< i guess you still wont really forgive about me after all i sms you this morning. that will be my last MSG probably for the week? i don't know.. see how ba.. Ben actually kinda really knock some sense into me.. i think i really "chu" alot pattern this time round and really make her devastated.. i dont know what the fuck i doing sia especially last night.. hais i think i gone overboard alr.. this time really will be the last time i am doing this after what i realized that i have been too immature to do all these to you.. sometime one really gotta taste of the pain and then will regret de.. yea i should really move on le and less make you worry about me.. i feel guilty for doing all these to you come to think of it. that why even before we enter this RS i told you this "will you regret having a relationship with me?" iam a fuck up person de.. got attitude problem. only ben and zb knows cos i keep complain to them like a monkey. hais i also realized that actually patience is really that important to someone who cares for relationship. one of my fren has taught me that yeah you are hurt but at least you learn sth from this RS and dont expect to make the same mistakes again.. i will not make this shit happen again. if you feels happier to be alone THIS TIME ROUND i will really respect your decision. wont really like say liao then later it happen again -.- but what i really wanna tell you is that the missing part of my heart is really separated from it le. hope this missing part can automatically come back and fix with my heart again..   

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