Tuesday, July 1, 2008
life izzit really meaningless or complicated? 2day in the afternoon XH n me was chatting nicely de till i juz tok abt my frens tat he gf wan us to be their papa and mama (play play de) wat she reply? she angry wif me n scold me bec she say she was the 1 hu ask 1st all of us noe tat we were playing only but i duno y she was like so serious abt it den abit tings cock up oso muz make the mess till so big. I duno izzit worth it anot i really wan gib up my life le. wat for keep living on? Is meaningless to me. Ytd i oso quarrel wif her i duno wat happen but tis few days we always quarrel n quarrel. Den till only ytd i was too stressful till make me become sick and rashes starting to grow. Y? cos iam stressful the doctor say. Y? bec i let XH down for mid yr exams. she gt 2 in class n top 5 whole lvl express. but me? i really duno...i was sux ok. only for tis yr. in order to get my goal i work hard ma..till 1 day make me sick. haiz. i really duno how explain to her cos whenever i wanted to my mind went blank i could not say a word or type a msg of a word out. iam useless.. 1 day if iam gone le i hope those i makes de frens wont 4get me de i always be in their memories n they will always be in my memories so does XH my beloved 1~ haiz probably i should stop writing by now still sick but nid do my project next day after is the deadline i duno how can i cope le feeling so depress....
d e a t h n o t e ) 5:23 AM
